Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Whitney's LiveJournal:

Friday, March 5th, 2004
4:39 pm	i FiNaLLy DeCiDeD... ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ My divorce from dependence That?s when you found me I was still soft And we always were in trouble Odds stacked against us And trouble?s what we are We get so far And then it just starts rewinding And the same old song We?re playing it again Suspension without suspense Now that I?ve murdered your inspiration And I forced you off Do you hate me? Do you want revenge? I want to call you But I won?t We get so far And then it just starts rewinding And the same old song We?re playing it again Suspension without suspense Oh the pessimistic protection plan Moderation loving I?ve been hardened by the circumstance We knew this was coming We get so far And then it just starts rewinding And the same old song We?re playing it again Suspension without suspense We get so far And then it just starts rewinding And the same old song We?re playing it again Suspension without suspense Intentions without intent But I don?t want the love we have to end ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~ yeah that pretty much sums up how i feel right now but im gonna do it i have to dammit uuuuuuuurg my life sucks and yes, this time, sucking IS bad ok so other than that...nothing happened today... only my decision and my new pregnancy haha that makes 4... ajays baby benji's baby the rapist's baby and now the hairy one's baby dammit...do the words multicolored condoms mean n e thing 2 u guys!?jk ...its ok to ride in a car(haha ride...)as long as you wear protection...A SEATBELT ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Once upon a time there lived a king. The king had a beautiful daughter, the princess. But there was a problem. Everything the princess touched would melt. No matter what; metal, wood, stone, anything she touched would melt. Because of this, men were afraid of her. Nobody would dare marry her. The king despaired. What could he do to help his daughter? He consulted his wizards and magicians. One wizard told the king, "If your daughter touches one thing that does not melt in her hands, she will be cured." The king was overjoyed and came up with a plan. The next day, he held a competition. Any man that could bring his daughter an object that would not melt would marry her and inherit the king's wealth. Three young princes took up the challenge. The first prince brought a sword of the finest steel. But alas, once the princess touched it, it melted. The prince went away sadly. The second prince brought diamonds. He thought diamonds are the hardest substance in the world and would not melt. But alas, once the princess touched them, they melted. He too was sent away disappointed. The third prince approached. He told the princess, "Put your hand in my pocket and feel what is in there." The princess did as she was told, though she turned red. She felt something hard. She held it in her hand. And it did not melt!!! The king was overjoyed. Everybody in the kingdom was overjoyed. And the third prince married the princess and they both lived happily ever afterQuestion: What was in the prince's pants? M&M's of course. They melt in your mouth, not in your hand. What were you thinking you pervert? ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ sorry guys...but i thought it was mega funny u aint cool unless u pee ur pants(billy madison of course!) suntain lotion is good 4 me you protect me te he he great song great movie ...ok i guessi want 2 have adam sandlers baby 2 now! no...he's not pretty enough... then agian...niether r the rapist or the hairy one... ok well im leaving end of this hellish rollercoaster peace out home slice have a semi orgasmic day but only semi dont make a mess STIFLERS MOM!*sorry just watched american pie 2...AGAIN!* Current Mood: distressed Current Music: No DoUbT ~ ReTuRn Of SaTuRn (Comment on this)
Monday, February 23rd, 2004
3:52 pm	nice insights into my mind...a scary place to be...scarier if u live inside here... ohk... bad mood again. suprise suprise. whitney=semiskitzo ohk... so rachel left a few hours ago she had some nice conversations last night... while i was halfway passed out on my bed with fefe(FEFE=the named pillow)she was having conversations with...certain people...about kiss kiss bears being us and how there's no multicolored(or any...) condoms under my bed... i read the whole conversation once i came back into conciousness at like 2 in the morning after a pixy stick rush...wow...she has a very active imagination...so does the person she was talking to...there was actually a lot of talk about my bed...frightening isnt it? "YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY THINGS LIKE THAT TO MY FRIENDS!" - my wonderful saying of the night(last night i mean...)...damn people who say things they normally wouldn't even say to me through other people...it's crazy...im one of those annoyingly insane people who never sais what i actually mean and that's so annoying so i hate when people do it ... whatever(ha i just sed whatever...next step...blonde hair dye and pom poms and a skirt that's halfway up my ass and still not quite tight enough cuz i can still breathe in it...) ohk n e way... what did i do today? nothing... no doubt was once again insulted by lulu the unloved/boy wonder...his new name... ohk and n e way guess what a great day im gonna have... im gonna go soon and watch some lame old school cartoons till i fall asleep and then i'll wake up...and do it again tomorrow!woohoo (i was gonna watch american pie 2 cuz iv had the damn dvd from ted for the past 3 weeks and i keep forgetting to watch it oh well im stupid but n e way now my dvd players not working...i think i broke it...oh well...) so basically yeah that's the extent to my funness this weekend...unless i decide to go see some lame chick flick with steph to make fun of britney wanna bes who think its some great talent to sing like britney...yeah...that usually cheers me up...seing britney impersonators who think that what they're doing isn't a crime agains real music...but i still probly won't go n e way...don't feel good and not in the mood 2 laugh at people...u know there's gotta be something wrong if im not in the mood to make fun of people! ha well ohk...whitney's bored...she's leaving...the end of this rollercoaster! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~ GREAT LUNCH CONVERSATIONS OF THE WEEK: me: well taht wouldn't make me a whore lulu: ur the pimps public whore kt: i'm his private whore me: ohk have a semi orgasmic day kt: i wont be in school tomorrow...im having a semiorgasmicosity...bi... i mean...bye semi ... (cant use the one about a blank and a blank...) and lets not forget our wonderful chat about herpes and those gross listerine things...and katie's pudding activities and skittle water and coloring candy hearts with black markers and making nice sentences out of them...yeah...i think we should be arrested...for devirginizing people's ears(in the whole "my virgin ears!" sense...not like...having sex with someones ear...that's just wrong...)yeah...cuz THAT was necessary to say... oh well...the end... just a thought to think about... if u want to say "i am high" in spanish... would it be "estoy hola"????????? and if a unicorn had to horns...would u call it a bicorn? peace out home slice Current Mood: if u dont know me-suicidal Current Music: fenix tx - threesome (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
6:37 pm	People Suck Spend your lazy, endless crazy Days inside my head. You're so selfish, you're not the only One who thinks he's dead. I'm paid to smile, now I'm on trial For what you think I said. But I never said that everything would be okay, And I never said that we would live to see another day. Motivate me I wanna get myself outta this bed. Captivate me I want good thoughts inside of my head. If I fall down would you come around Pick me right up off the ground? Un-realistic, and narcissistic, You say I'm selfish and absurd. You try to change me, You try to save me, You say I'm gonna learn. I'm so blind, I'm out of time, You're so unkind sometimes. I never lied, I never lied, I never lied.... Coz I never said that everything would be ok, And I never said that we would live to see another day... Cuz' everything, it will be ok, You know we're gonna live to see another day... Motivate me I wanna get myself outta this Good Charlotte is awesome... ohk...so i hate people agian. they are mean. all of them. well...most of them. i want 2 be in a bubble. no contact w/ the outside world. i dont get it. i leave u people alone. so leave me alone! oh, and just to clear it up...I AM NOT SUICIDAL!!! people think i am. but i'm not. not that stupid. i wouldn't kill myslef. might have reason to. but id never do it. "...sitting all alone in my room wishing i could make it all go away these stupid people they don't know me they pretend they know everything about me they don't see inside i want to cry i want to die..." (bet u cant tell me what taht's from...and HAHA i wont tell u cuz its gonna be one of those annoying things u spend 3 years trying 2 figure out...fun fun) Today I screwed up again You said I could tell in the way, You said goodbye I saw you standin' at your t-shirt stand With your new boyfriend He's really cool...I get the point! I don't want you, I don't want you (Say "Not a Chance, what don't you see?) I don't want you, I don't want you, (Say "You're not good enough for me") What? Do your thing. C'mon Today I screwed up again I wasn't paying attention I walked into the wall again, I heard you laugh and saw you grin While you were sitting at your t-shirt stand With all your cool friends They're really cool...I get the point! Today I'll give it one last try And then I know I'll wonder why I did it to myself once again I saw your boyfriend he's 6'3, Quarterback on Varsity The football players love to torture me So I'm feeling like I'm not fitting in, I know that I'm not fitting in with you And your stuck-up friends...I get the point! Go, Yeah I heard you, "You're not good enough for me"I heard you C'mon I heard you I get the point too much music isn't bad for you. not enough can kill you. omg i still hate people. they're so stupid. they think they know me. but they dont. (you think you know, but you have no idea)ha there's still people who think i'm really a whore...becuase of something one person said. rumors are stupid! people are stupider. there are no stupid questions. only stupid poeple. ha. ohk...funniness...my friend want's slimjim! it's great! funny. sick. crazy. but still...great. she sez she saw him on friday at spencers. she sed he was "cute" or "adorable" or some word like that. i was like...yeah are you sure we're talking about the same person here? but ohk i can't blame her. i almost went out w/ him. ha. no offense 2 him...not that he'd read this. oh well. why do i tell u people these things? u don't care. oh well. ima go. peace out homeslice NOT CUB SCOUT!! ...there's a place inside my mind yeah a place you'll never find... ...the whole world is my enemy 2 times the devil w/ all the significance... Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Good Charlotte...obviously... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
1:01 pm	HELLZ YEAH IM BACK FROM THAT HELL HOLE!! ok...4 all u losers who didnt know i was away 4 the past 3 days in hell...i mean...visiting my grandparents house...fun fun fun. i went 2 the beach. that makes sense. in my head n e way. no but i did go...but stupid steph i didnt go swimming cuz yeh it is february. why the hell do we spell february like that. it should be febuary...the way it's PRONOUNCED!! stupid people...the just cant spell...i guess hukd oon fonikz dident wurc foor them! n e way...2 hrs in the car ... headfones...loud...owch. my ears hurt. actually i did get my mom 2 listen 2 lit (atomic) but she made me turn it off cuz she didn't like it...LOSER!! woohoo me and steph are gonna go see the movie w/ britney spears.!! why? I HAVE NO IDEA! it just seems like a great movie 2 laugh through. and its great 2 throw popcorn @ people who try to sing just like britney(as if that's a talent n e way)...but uhm..no i only got kicked out of a movie theater once and that time iwasnt even doing n e thing wrong!! hey guess waht!? i made it through this trip to my grandparents house w/out drinking! (like last time in the summer w/ linz and ted and me playing poker...damn vadka collins is good!...all...16 of them!!)...jk it was only like 4... wooooooah why did i just tell u people that? oh well not like u never drink...drank...watever u wanna say... hmmm...im hungry. i want candy. i ate 12 lolipops yesterday. to keep me awake. i was bored. yeah. and coffee...with lots of sugar. about 30 cups. yeah. ok... i think im starting to talk insesantly...and boringly...adn ima go learn 2 spell... no wait. ima go eat. that sounds like fun...as long as no poptarts are involved. (or twinkies...u guys know what i mean...but not like THAT...) ok... peace out home slice Current Mood: tired Current Music: no music...head still hurts...goodcharlotte stuck in my head (Comment on this)
Friday, February 13th, 2004
4:52 pm	wow...my head really hurts...and this time i didn't even hit it on a ceiling fan... ok ... so people are mean. everyone's making fun of me for reasons i can't say...and it's mean. eww tomorrows valentines day. i'm still anti valentines day. its stupid. a stupid holiday. guess im not into all taht stupid stuff. no one beleives me that im still anti-valentines day. BUT I AM! im still wearing all black. and i'm still "going to die" SO LEAVE ME ALONE!! so what am i doing tomorrow? i have no idea. usually i sit and stare @ the wall until that gets boring... hmmm...i don't wanna not do that! its practically tradition! and of course u know rachel's gonna piss me off all day tomorrow cuz she gets 2 go 2 new york 2 see stupid matt who looks like a freakin monkey!! my head hurts. my mother is satan. no...not to steph. steph thinks she's cool. haha. but i want steph's parents. but not in that way. ew. katie had a dream today about someone in our lunch. ...it's nice to have a husband... that's all im saying. dont worry katie...i won't tell your secret. although i should...you did try to kill me w/ a plastic fork...oh wait...taht was your dream too!! we really need to get u to stop sleeping...well...i know one way...jk ohk so what was i saying? crap i dont remember. only that people...especially stephanie and lulu...must die 4 their meanness. THERE WILL BE NO CADILLAC!! ha. and i don't care what the homophobe sez... shut up about horny girl! ha...horny girl and horny bastard...scary thought...only that's not me...and hopefully not him... wow...that made sense. actually it would if u knew... but most of u don't. and i don't want to explain. i think i need a shrink. i have issues...literally. i think i sound suicidal. oh well... yes! we found someone more anti vday than all of us!!(everyone in the "band" lunch table that is...) the namesake 4 my imaginary fetus is extremely anti. he wrote a little poemy thing. we had story time. it was great. scary... but great. BUT IT WAS NOT MY FAULT. Katie sais i made him that way! but i didn't. ...trust me he's not the kind of person who would ever be into valentines day...i did not make him like that. ok now that we got that all cleared up... people are finally shutting up about the fetus thing. and the whore thing. I AM NOT A WHORE!! you people are mean! me and steph were even fighting over the lack-of-experience award. she sais she wins...but i don't think it counts. i want a rematch!! ok ... so how many days till i die? oh...only one... dammit. i never got 2 sky dive. or bungie jump. or pretend i wanted to do any of those things. oh well. who's coming to the funeral? ha...yeh what was it i sed about sounding suicidal.? i don't care. i don't care about anything really. i'm confused. and mad at people. people who tell me things and i don't even know if they're true...(i hope not...) ...ugh...yes i speak fluent caveman... i could have said people who tell me things about people...but i didn't want to. but i guess now i did. ok that's basically it. everyone's mad @ me. i'm mad @ everyone. great(ness) sweetness...great song great band...jimmy eat world... awesomeness + 1 insanity + 1 yehs...this is pointless. katie's had too much brendon. or something less perverted. ha...she sed it not me. well...i wonder if her husband knows!? ok the end. kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them And you know it makes me sick to be on that list But I should have thought of that before we kissed You say you?re gonna burn before you mellow I will be the one to burn you Why?d you have to go and pick me? When you that we were different, completely I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I?m another ex-girlfriend on your list But I should have thought of that before we kissed Your wildness scares me So does your freedom You say you can?t stand the restrictions I find myself trying to change you If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn?t have to And I feel so mean, I feel in between ?Cause I?m about to give you away I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend (for someone else to take) I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend (am I making a mistake?) I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time that we spent) I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girl, friend I?m another ex-girlfriend on your list But I should have thought of that before we kissed I?m another ex-girlfriend on your list But I should have thought of that before we kissed I?m about to give you away for someone else to take I?m about to give you away for someone else to take We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs And we?ve been in between the days for years And I know that when I see you I?m going to die I know I?m going to want you and you know why It?s going to kill me to see you with the next girl ?Cause I?m the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girlfriend I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them I kinda always knew I?d end up your ex-girl friend I?m another ex-girlfriend on your list But I should have thought of that before we kissed I?m another ex-girlfriend on your list But I should have thought of that before we kissed great song. great band. not a happy song though... oh well..peace out home slice Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: No Doubt - Return of Saturn (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
10:02 am	ha people suck a little less...wait...that didn't sound right... ok maybe i don't hate people. just stupid people and mean people. acutally, just mean people. stupid people are funny. especially stupid people named ed...therefore...special ed. that's great. stephanie's mad @ me. our lunch table is falling appart! not literally...that would be wierd... my cousin's mad @ me too. it's insane. actually, it's pretty funny, i feel a little bad 4 her...but still...its great. *official list of mean people* -steph...it was HER idea 2 write that in the locker room... -katie...she told lee he was the father...of AN IMAGINARY FETUS! -lulu...because he's mean...that's all. ...ther's lots of other mean people but i can't think of them now...it's too early. ...and i'm still here waiting here to catch you if you fall i don't know why i care so much when i shouldn't care at all great song. great band. ha steph couldn't get the best ataris cd...they didn't have it! hahahahah 4 u! me and steph are gonna go get jobs. NO PROSTITUTION! then we're gonna buy guitars.(or guitar strings) then our whole lunch tables gonna start a band. and write songs about...nevermind. i can't wait until tomorrow. i get 2 suffer 45 minutes of torture 6th period. it'll be great. my wonderful friends. I ONLY HIT MY HEAD ONCE YESTERDAY! it's like a new record! wow...it's cold in my house...i mean...my box under the stairs. i'm freezing. yes...very cold. rolling with the top down seat back rollin in my cadillac self control knowing right from wrong is what i lack top down seat back rolling in my cadillac oh that reminds me...AJAYS CADILLAC IS A 63 NOT 61...JEREMY'S IS A 61, IT'S THE ONE ON THE BACK OF THE A PLACE IN THE SUN ALBUM... sorry i thought it was very important 4 everyone 2 know...you know in case n e 1 was planning on buying me a 61 cadillac(a black one of course)...well...now u gotta get me a 63...and i need to learn to drive... ..but there's always teds truck! eww i have detention 2morrow...agian i didnt even do n e thing wrong! its insane i think im gonna kick and scream and refuse 2 go sounds like fun im pissed. can't really say why. but it sucks. that's all there is to say. i'll try to fix the suckiness...but its not my fault. woah if n e one knows what i'm talking about...let me know...cuz i don't even know..exactly. i confuse myself. oh well. that's ok. confusion can be good. it's better than understanding things. that gets boring. ok...speaking of boring... pEaCe OuT hOmE sLiCe ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~ I DO NOT SUFFER FROM INSANITY I ENJOY EVERY MINUTE OF IT Current Mood: loved Current Music: the ataris, mest, lit, mxpx, & adema(cdplayer onRANDOM) (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
7:17 pm	uhh...i'm pissed... you suck. people suck. everyone sucks. ha i'm going to get through this without the slightest bit of perversion.(wow...big word 4 me) oh it's so hard 4 me 2 not make things perverted...but ha i just sed something i could make perverted...AND I DIDN'T!! there's hope 4 me yet! ok ... what was i saying? oh yeah...people suck. most of them anyway. still...no pervertedness...great word...but it's killing me. (that's just who i am) oh, fuck it... katie wants to know if 2 lesbians somehow managed to have a baby...and it was a boy...what would that be like???? well...i guess...as i sed...you need...a sperm(in a teacher's voice) ha...if you don't get it...you probably never will. ok i think i sprained my wrist...making typing a real bitch. are you the bitch who told the bitch that i'm a bitch well listen bitch it takes a bitch to know a bitch...BITCH!! yes...i does work w/ motherfucker 2...but it takes 2 long 2 say...but whore works just fine... agian...if you don't get it...u probably never will... (unless you come into my lunch) ...coulda made THAT perverted too...) so...i did another stupid thing. still not saying what it is. but it's not the thing everyone thinks it is. again...people suck. they all think i'm really some back ally whore or something...but no...me and steph fought 4 the lack of experience award...if not 4 the plastic fetus...jk we have sick minds...it's true. oh well. what did i do today? not much. i got home. i DIDN'T hit my head today...that was pretty cool...i guess i ate a poptart(very exciting) hey...poptarts are the best...especially if u know the "code" for poptart... i have a condominium down the shore. (i wonder what that could secretly mean?) katie is mean. stephanie is mean. rachel has officially gotten herself into the mean category. writing things on the girls locker room wall...bad. especially when they're not true. well...no one saw rachel's violation of my mind... but everyone saw "whitney loves lee" written there...and if not...well...they know now...BUT NOT TRUE! katie found out the truth of the 2 today. it was great. almost as good as her squeeky "he DID!?" that was great. she looks like a chipmunk. (ha and now no one can associate with her.) by the way...this is katie valentine...satanic last name... by the way...6 days till satan's day. i hate valentines day. yes it's just an excuse 4 the losers who r all alone...but i hate it n e way. always have. always will. nice insite into my mind. ha...big words spelled wrong. as steph would say ... greatness...(confuzzeled) great words. it's fun to make up words. i think i should create my own language. with the word "bolsa" in it of course. best spanish word...according to katie...not the satan one...the other one. *who's supposed 2 meet me @ the secret place in...31 minutes...every friday...but hasn't happened yet...she knows what i mean... ok this is boring boring boring boring interesting conversations of the day Katie: so could 2 people give birth to a head of lettuce? Me: I don't know. If someone gave you a million dollars...would you eat a sperm?(HEY SHE WAS STUDYING BIOLOGY!!) Katie: for a million dollars yeah. Me: what about a penny? Katie: no, i would NEVER eat a penny!!! Katie: which came first the sperm or the fetus? Steph: sperm. Me: but wouldn't u need a fetus first? Steph: no, god created sperm. (yes this was the general topic in lunch today...) ok this is still boring i'm leaving let's BLOW this popsicle stick...wait...taht's not right... hmmmmmmm...i dunno... *Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die *How can I miss you if you don't go away? *A bar tender is just a pharmacist with a limited inventory *As I said before, i NEVER repeat myself. *I have had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it. *I'm not a complete idiot, some parts are missing! <<>> Current Mood: distressed Current Music: MxPx - Misplaced Memories...great song... (Comment on this)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
4:41 pm	He banged my fetus!!! Steph brought me my fetus today! It was a boy. There was proof. She tried to open her juice with the fetus's ... nevermind. Which reminds me...we found out where purple penis juice came from ... BARNEY!! My friends are mean. Katie and Steph wrote Whitney loves Lee on the board thingy in the girls locker room...BUT IT'S NOT TRUE.!! (i ripped it off) Then katie made a sign that said "You're the father" and showed him...ugh. BUT HE BANGED MY FETUS!! (on the table...woooooooah) Quote 4 the day: Marriage takes 3 woooooooah that is odd...but true I WANT TO BE YOUR HUSBAND/WIFE! ha (stupid people wouldn't get it...) Useless fact of the day: Ajay Popoff's birthday is september 19th(1973) yes...i know...i have no life. ...there's a place inside my mind yeah a place you'll never find... (singing...) weirdass song from slipknot: The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target Two times the devil with all the significance Dragged and raped for the love of a mob I can't stay - because I can't be stopped Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses Let me tell you how it's gonna be I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me Welcome to the same ol' fucking scam Same ol' shit in a dead fad Everybody wants to be so hard Are you real or a second rate sports card? They all lost their dad or their wife just died They never got to go outside - SHUT UP Nobody gives a fuck it doesn't change the fact that you suck (We are) The anti-cancer (We are) The only answer Stripped down, we want you dead But what's inside of me, you'll never know (We are) Bipolar gods (We are) You know what we are My life was always shit And I don't think I need this anymore Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you Standing out is the new pretension Sreamline the (sic)ness, half-assed aggression You gotta see it to believe it, we all got conned All the mediocre sacred cows we spawned Put your trust in the mission We will not repent - this is our religion (We are) The anti-cancer (We are) The only answer Stripped down, we want you dead But waht's inside of me, you'll never know (We are) Bipolar gods (We are) You know what we are My life was always shit And I don't think I need this anymore I AM HATED YOU ARE HATED WE ARE HATED Everything sucks and I can prove it Everybody dies, shuffle on, remove it Idividuals, indispensable I'm the paradox deity vessel ...the other side holds no secret But this side is done, I don't need it Before you go, you should know you're breaking down You'll be rotten by the time you're underground (We are) The anti-cancer (We are) The only answer Stripped down, we want you dead But what's inside of me, you'll never know (We are) Bipolar gods (We are) You know what we are My life was always shit And I don't think I need this anymore (We Are) The source of conscience (We Are) Distorted sentients There's only one thing left And I can't leave until it's sated (We Are) The absolute (We Are) Controlling you They're closing in, I can't escape I AM HATED ...la la la la la...still singing...but don't know the words...taht makes it semi-difficult KATIE FOUND OUT 2DAY...THAT'S THE WAY THE COOKIES COME ook what is the point in this? i don't remember. it's boring me. ok. still bored. would sing more...but i don't know hte words to this song. oh well i'm skrewed. That is how i spell screw...so SHUT UP!! ok time for this rollercoaster 2 end. 8 days to hell... pEaCe OuT hOmE sLiCe/s thought 2 ponder: if you want to say hi ghetto-ly...can you say peace IN home slice? just a thought... GET OUTTA MY GRILL GET OUTTA MY GEORGE FOREMAN!! Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Good Charlotte (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
7:35 pm	I got my cable modem thingy now my computer is fast so yay i'm happy...wait...you don't care... yeah ok so i got my cable modem thingy today... now my computer is fast. haha...sucks 2 be all of you slow people... (like steph who's computer takes an hour 2 dl a song...) MINE TAKES A MINUTE! ha ok so ne way... all of you people are really pissing me off w/ the fetus thing! i am not a whore ok!? and if i was WHICH I AM NOT i would not be stupid enough 2 get knocked up... especially by a farm animal or some imaginary purple dinosaur... STEPH DON'T FORGET TO BRING MY FETUS THOUGH! ok so uhm... my life is boring...obviously i'm stuck writing this stupid shit 2 amuse everyone else who's as bored as i am right now... it's like the circle of life...wait...don't even get me started on THAT... rachel wrote me a note 2 day... can't say who or what it was about...but when i was reading it..the person it was about walked by...and i started laughing...only people who know about the note will find this amusing.the rest of you...oh well...it sucks to be you. FUCT UP CONVERSATIONS I HAD 2DAY: Stephanie: Your shoes are ugly Me: Your mom is ugly Steph: Your mom is hot... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAH Me: you're a bad spawn...go back to your uterus(DON'T ASK) Katie: You're a bad sperm, go to my egg Ok...I am still incredibly bored... time to sing: The stars are out tonight and you're the brightest one shining in my sky it's like every wish i ever made came true the day i woke up lying next you will you be my best friend? if i offer you my heart cuz it's already yours we could hang out every night and watch the sun go down as long as we could watch it rise again gave me a valentine it's these little things that stand the test of time i saved the tickets from the shows that we've been to and a thousand other memories of you... ok...i have no life it's official but HAHA my computer is still fast ok so what happened today? steph found out that the kids r us shopper's real name isn't nester...i didn't hit my head yet(ALWAYS A GOOD THING...BUT THE SKATEBOARD AND SHELVES AND CEILING FAN THE PAST FEW DAYS...OWCH)...and, oh yeh i just remembered my story about "fuck" girl. The girl w/ terrets in my study...it's insane how much she can say fuck. More than me even! That is AMAZING! ok ... the end rollercoaster over. Current Mood: jealous Current Music: The Ataris - End Is Forever (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 3rd, 2002
6:45 pm	Football sucks...so does your mom... It's my mom's birthday today. fun...uhm wait...no not fun... boring. thinking about skateboarding w/ a stolen skateboard... don't ask. people are here. no...not fun either. my cousins are here. they bite...literally but not like that. my cousin enjoys screaming into the microphone. owch. hit on the head w/ a skateboard. or something. ok...well uhm...i'm bored. no doubt was on the pregame show thingy. awesome. "sweetness" as stephanie would say. YOU SUCK!!! i went outside today. boring. it was cold. so we came inside. fun. no not really. bored. still bored. "...i like cheese. you suck...your mom sucks..." (my cousin is ranting...) interesting. boring. i need sleep. sleep=good. insomnia=bad. glad we distinguised that. my head still hurts. ceiling fan...skateboard...owch. football sucks. i hate football. foosball is for the devil!! my cousin tried playing drums with chopsticks. it didn't work. then he tried 2 set them on fire. didn't work either. wish it did. not a piro or n e thing. but still... woulda given me something to do... sorta. bored. what did i do yesterday? oh yeah. i was home alone...wanted to have a party...but uhm... no. so i went to katies house. we watched charlie's angels, part of duce bigalow(BIGBIG...U KNOW...) then the exorcist on the spanish channel. it was great. my cousin is dying. it's great. hanging himself with chicken wire. no not chicken wire. something else. it is wire though. great. and he's making funny semi-orgasmic noises. WOOOOOOAH. (save that for home buddy) ok still bored leaving now no im not i lied ha i'm funny no im not semi-skitzo right now dam...he's alive. i want cake. i'm hungry. food=good. ok ... the end of this rollercoaster... useless facts of the day: 1. Ajay Popoff has a black 1961 cadillac 2. Potato 5. i cant count 6. chopsticks make great drums 7. i found a guitar for $150...might buy it... question to "ponder": how did the chicken cross the road? (no, not why, how...) BCUZ HE HAD FEATHERS... Current Mood: hungry Current Music: mycuz iswatching cinderella...somebitch is singingonTV..owch (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 2nd, 2002
11:08 am	boredom sucks! People who call before noon must DIE!!! i need sleep. whitney+insomnia=BAD. ok so uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhm i have no life. i have 2 waste time writing on this stupid thing. haven't offended anyone yet. kinda sucks. i'll try...but it's HARD 2 offend people when you try. usually it just happens. how sad is my life? i was being forced to go visit a "friend of the family" 2day...that was my only plans 4 the day. now that person cancelled on me ... so now im left with nothing to do. even THAT sounds more interesting than THIS. absolutely nothing to do. bored...boredom sucks. my sister is insane today. recited lines from austin powers. insane. oh i'm just a girl living in captivity blablabla i'm singing...loud. not good. not good @ all. steph said her mom caught her singing in the bathroom. ha. don't know why i just said that. i'm bored. still. boredom...still sucks. i think i'll stare @ my hot pink lava lamp 4 the next 3 and a half...and a half hours. fun. you had the best but you gave her up cuz dependancy might interupt idealistic will so hard to please put ur indesisive mind at ease... i can't sing. but i do anyway. oh well. i'm a loser. i'm getting a guitar. i don't know when. but soon. and when i do... ha...rollercoasters for everyone. (rollercoasters in hell theory) owch. i hit my head... not today. but the day before, and twice the day before that. and a few days before that... owch. no frying pans yet. (non stick only) but i did hit my head on a ceiling fan. owch. ok...this cd bites. not really. just listened to it too much. final cd count: 103(and a half...) don't ask about the half. aaaaaaaaaaah. i did a stupid thing. i forgot about it. but now i remember. but no worries... no fetus's. if there WAS a fetus, it would NOT be purple. i DO NOT share the same feelings for barney. you think he's gay? it's a possibility. hmmmm...interesting thought... I MUST FIND OUT. stephanie got to feel lee's hair. she said it was hard. great. ok...what was the point of this? i don't know. if n e one finds out... well uhm...don't tell me. i'll figure it out on my own. then i'll feel special. not special bus special. seriously special. yay! (still not quite there yet.) ok off to battle the underwear gnomes in a stolen tart cart...the penguins are wild and in charge. TIME TO SAVE THE WORLD!! (if n e one finds out the name of the pink powerpuff girl...TELL ME!!) remember: you can pick your friends you can pick your nose but why would you want to pick your friend's nose? HOW DO THEY GET THE DEAR TO CROSS @ THE LITTLE YELLOW ROAD SIGN??????????? pEaCe OuT hOmE sLiCe! Current Mood: cranky Current Music: No Doubt - Tragic Kingdom (Excuse me Mr.) (Comment on this)
Friday, February 1st, 2002
9:56 pm	Just got back from the movies w/ steph. orange county sucked man. well, it didnt suck MAN, but, man it sucked! people we knew were there...we couldnt be complete asses! that sucked 2. everything sucks. everyone sucks. (your mom) (steph do you want me 2 tell my mom i sed thanx 4 the ride?) ok n e way...my life is boring...obviously my head hurts...i hit my head on the fan... stephanie forgot my fetus... (yes that makes perfect sense) lalala oh yeah we had a singalong in the car...and stephanie was on speed...she sang shrek songs out the window! it was great. THERE WAS OLD PEOPLE MAKING OUT! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ok that's it ... boredom sucks...so does your mom...sorry that one just slipped out. ...ALL UP IN MY GRILL...ALL UP IN MY GEORGE FOREMAN!... peace out home slice toodles Current Mood: amused Current Music: good charlotte - waldorf worldwide (i cant spell!) (Comment on this)
4:46 pm	uhm...lets see if this is even slightly amusing... ha...uhm...why the hell am i doing this? i dont know. everyone else forces me 2 go look @ their stupid live journal things...as if their lives are that interesting...(they're not)...so uhm....i felt left out...so uhm...yeah... i didn't do n e thing today. i was home sic watching jerry springer. it was great. scary...but great. i think i'm going to see orange county with steph tonight. funfunfun. i think we should throw popcorn @ the old people making out. that's fun. (sadly...i never get popcorn thrown @ me...)jk... POTATO(the word just came to mind) OK TO CLEAR IT UP 4 EVERYONE...OFFICALLY... 1. i did a stupid thing 2. it was not THAT stupid 3. i'm not having a fetus!! 4. if i WAS having a fetus(which i'm not) it would NOT be a purple dinosaur! ok...ima leave now. this is boring. peace out home slice! Current Mood: high Current Music: the get up kids - don't hate me (1 Comment |Comment on this)